NOVPUBChapter 178: 178, Ultimate Love, Madness
Chapter 178: 178, Ultimate Love, Madness
Everything around seemed frozen in snow and ice, utterly silent.
Si Chen moved slowly, his heart convulsing in agony. He yearned to be frozen solid, unable to feel anything at all.
In all the years since he left, he never once returned to his homeland.
Just because he was scared to see Shi Yuhuan again, he deliberately avoided any news about him.
He was just too scared, scared to see any look of disdain or pity or plain dislike on Shi Yuhuan’s face.
So he chose to ignore it all, to pretend as if Shi Yuhuan didn’t exist in this world, as if he’d never known the man.
Yet, he was always living in this nightmare, trapped within the hateful gaze of Shi Yuhuan. His soul felt locked up, unable to free itself no matter how hard he tried.
For all these years, Shi Yuhuan had remained single and he had been secretly relieved, thinking maybe Shi Yuhuan was just like him, merely unwilling to accept it.
But when he heard of Shi Yuhuan’s marriage, he was overwhelmed with jealousy, envy, hatred. He was lost and didn’t know what he was feeling.
All he knew was that he needed to return to his homeland.
Perhaps seeing it with his own eyes was the only way he could let go.
However, when he saw Shi Yuhuan again, a tidal wave of time swept over him, and he felt happily lost in it again, happily confused, with no desire to resist.
His heart was convulsing in unbearable pain, blood boiling within him, body shaking, as if he was transported back to the year when Shi Yuhuan disdainfully kicked him out.
This man who gave him a reason to live, who gave him a second chance at life.
Why were they like strangers now? Why wouldn’t he even look at him? Had he ever thought of him through these years? n𝚘vp𝚞𝚋.com
And that woman, was she truly the one Shi Yuhuan loved? Did he really love her?
He was in pain, sorrow, bitterness, hatred. It felt as if all the blood in his body was rushing to his head. He felt dizzy, with a splitting headache, like his head was about to explode.
He couldn’t escape. When would this agony end?
Si Chen clutched his heart, knelt down on one knee, fists clenched.
A figure stood in the distance, tall and upright, his face hidden in the dark, radiating the same sadness as Si Chen.
Si Chen sensed his presence. He looked at him. Even though he couldn’t see his face, he knew who it was.
He stumbled to get up, and then suddenly rushed towards him, tightly hugging the man, voice choked with emotion, “Why?”
The man quietly let him hold on, just placing his hand on the back of Si Chen’s head, patting lightly twice in an attempt to comfort.
This small act of comfort only intensified the flood of emotions Si Chen had held back for so long.
He buried his face in the man’s chest, softly moaning like a wounded beast, “I can’t accept it, I can’t accept it.”
The man squinted sharply, “Why bother when he treats you like this?”
Si Chen shook his head, shaking it with anger, “No, I don’t like that woman. I don’t want them to be together. I don’t want, please help me! He doesn’t love her! There’s nobody in the world who knows him better than me. He can’t possibly love anybody!!”
Tiredness etched across the man’s face as he gently pushed Si Chen away.
This action drew a fierce reaction from Si Chen. He immediately grabbed the man, staring at him fiercely, “Why are you pushing me away? You can’t push me away. You absolutely can’t leave me!!”
As he spoke, he shoved the man against a tree and fiercely kissed him on the lips, biting like a wild animal.
