NOVPUBChapter 445: 445, Friendship, and Love
Chapter 445: 445, Friendship, and Love 𝓃𝓸𝓋𝓅𝓾𝒷.𝒸ℴ𝓂
He pondered for a moment, as if recalling something, a cold gleam slid across his eyes, “If not you, then is it him?”
Raising his hand, he pointed at Si Chen, “Is he doing this to Qinghuan because of Shi Yuhuan?”
Shi Mu trembled, his eyes slightly reddened, “No, it’s not!”
Yan Pingdan scoffed coldly with disbelief, “Amu, I know everything you have done is because of him. We were friends for so many years, I did so many things for you. If I find out you’ve hurt my sister for him, we will be done forever!”
“No! It’s not like that, Adan, I would never hurt you, let alone your sister,” Shi Mu defended hastily, feeling as if a chunk of his heart had been torn out, throbbing with pain.
He never thought he would see such a disgraceful day.
The always understanding and caring Yan Pingdan, who had always been good to him, would say something so cruel, so heartless to him.
Si Chen frowned as he watched them, unsure of his own feelings.
He felt as if he was going mad,”Ah!” he yelled out, his eyes reddened, a layer of moisture rolled in, “Amu, what have you been hiding from me? Why do I suddenly feel like a fool?”
A bitter, intense pain washed over him like a tide, drowning his heart.
Ever since Shi Yuhuan, he had become incredibly proud, telling himself that apart from Shi Yuhuan, no one else could hurt him.
But all of this, was just a facade.
Today, as if unexpectedly splashed with cold water on a hot summer day, he was suddenly cooled down, suddenly awakened!
“Si Chen…” His voice was hoarse as he softly called out Si Chen’s name.
Some liquid threatened to spill from his eyes, but he tried to keep his head up, struggling not to let the burning droplets fall.
But Si Chen, had already silently shed tears before him, “I just realized today, you were the substitute I found, and I, I was the substitute you found!”
“…” Shi Mu remained silent, head hung low.
The color drained from Yan Pingdan’s face, his hands unconsciously clenched at his sides.
Si Chen spoke softly, “When I realized my admiration and respect for my brother was distorting and deforming, I was very troubled, I couldn’t explain it, I couldn’t escape it, and I couldn’t bear my slightest disrespect for him, I wanted to keep it to myself, but in the end, I said it. I will never forget the look on his face, the disbelief, I have never felt such shame in my life.
He left me coldly and resolutely, without a word, but gave me the coldest rejection in the world, I really wanted to die at that time, it was you who taught me, who cared for me.”
With that, Shi Mu felt a tightness in his chest.
He will never forget that day when he rejected him, he went rock climbing and fell down, Shi Mu was there and saved him, afterwards, Shi Mu took care of him extremely attentively.
On a chance occasion, he leaned over and kissed him suddenly, only then did their relationship became clear.
“No, it’s not like that!” Shi Mu explained, his voice a bit scratchy.
His feelings for Yan Pingdan had always been more than friends but less than lovers, perhaps not a lover, but as important as one.
For Si Chen, it was love.
That day when Si Chen confessed to Shi Yuhuan, he saw how fragile, hopeless, and lonely he was.
