Chapter 174: Isleen, What Have You Done?
Suddenly, Rhett spoke, his voice gentle and sincere. "That was amazing, Isleen. You were amazing. By the moon goddess, I wish we hadn’t wasted so much time dancing around our mate bond." He planted a kiss on my forehead. 𝓷ℴ𝓋𝓅𝓊𝒷.𝒸𝓸𝓶
The simple act was enough to make my cheeks flush with both embarrassment and a shyness that I hadn’t felt during the sex. Seems the confidence I had just now had begun washing away as soon as I reached climax.
After a long silence, I finally found the strength to speak again. "I mean what I said earlier, Rhett. About you opening up with your emotions."
Rhett chuckled. He turned to look at my face, a childish grin on his face. "It seems you’ve finally stopped calling me ’Gamma’ when we’re alone."
I creased my brows. I hadn’t even realized that.
"Is there a problem with that, Gamma?" My tone was a bit sarcastic, but I didn’t care in the slightest. Rhett must’ve gone insane if he wanted me to address him formally after what we’d just done.
Back to my question, Rhett shrugged sluggishly, ignoring my sarcastic tone. "Not really. You’re my mate, after all, so I don’t mind. Just, maybe try keeping it down when we’re public. Except, of course, if you want us to officially announce our relationship."
I blinked repeatedly, at a loss for words. ’Relationship’? Why hadn’t I registered what I and Rhett had as a relationship in my head yet? No matter how hard I craved him like a drug, it still felt weird thinking of him as my boyfriend, even though that would be an appropriate word to call a man who I’d been seeing and even made love with just now.
I couldn’t hide our relationship anymore. We’d just taken the next step and I felt like it was time. We just had to think about when to announce our relationship, and we still had to consider certain things. Like Kylo.
"So..." Rhett’s voice derailed me from my train of thought. He sounded really pleased, like a child who’d just gotten his present for Christmas early. "About you calling me ’emotionless’. Please, enlighten me...am I really that cold?"
I gulped, struggling to come up with the right words to answer that. "Well, yeah. I mean, it would be nice if you didn’t completely disregard my existence in public. Also, you’re so uptight and cling so much to your respect for the traditions that y–"
Rhett interjected, sitting up. "Now, now. Hold up, Isleen. Where is this conversation leading to? I already told you, that if you want us to make our relationship public, then just give me the go-ahead. Honestly, I’m also tired of hiding my feelings for you outside." I saw something akin to guilt flash on his face before he continued, "I’ve been blessed by having you as my mate, and sometimes I can’t help feeling that I’ve been too hard on you. I know I have. But it’s all because I wanted you to see that the moon goddess knows what she’s doing when she picks a mate for each wolf."
That...was a lot of words. I couldn’t believe my ears. Did Rhett really say all that just now? Was this the same man who I’d been complaining was too emotionless all this while?
I shook my head. I needed time to think about this, and I felt like I needed to do that right away. So, I sat up too, giving Rhett a wry smile.
"I really have to go now, Rhett. I–" I tried finding the words to tell him that I wanted to leave, but again, he beat me to it.
"If you want time to think, that’s fine. But you don’t have to go now. I wouldn’t let you anyway. It’s not safe out there Isleen, and it’s already so late." His tone was firm, not leaving any room for arguments.
I turned my gaze to a clock on the wall. It was almost ten PM. Now I understood Rhett’s reluctance in letting me go outside. I sighed, giving up on the idea of going back tonight. I would do so first thing in the morning.
My belly felt fuzzy as I thought about how concerned Rhett had sounded just now. The man could be a real asshole sometimes, but once you got close enough to him, he could be really sweet if he wanted to.
Rhett suddenly placed his fingers on my face, bringing my gaze to meet his. His eyes held a warmth, like a calm fire enveloping me with its light, keeping me safe and warm on a winter night. I saw the sincerity in his eyes, the admiration, and for the first time, I felt like he was letting himself get vulnerable around me.
"Isleen, I..." He trailed off, struggling with his words. I creased my brows, feeling my heart race with anticipation. What did he want to say that felt so hard for him?
Finally, Rhett sighed, finding his voice again. "I really care about you. And, I don’t want any harm to fall on you. I wouldn’t allow it."
With that, Rhett embraced me, even though we were still naked, taking me off guard. I knew my face had gotten red by now. But, I allowed myself to melt into the feeling, forgetting all my worries about this relationship. Whatever it was, we would figure something out. Together...
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The next morning, I woke up with a pounding headache. I sat up, my eyes falling on Rhett who was fast asleep beside me. My mind was in a haze as I struggled to remember everything that happened last night.
We...we had sex last night! And I was the one who initiated it. Never In my wildest dreams would I have imagined that I could be as confident as I was last night. But that didn’t feel like just, ’confidence’.
I looked down at my naked body and then at the wall clock. It was Nine AM.
I slowly got out of bed, careful not to wake up Gamma Rhett. I didn’t want to disturb him with the thoughts in my head right now and decided to go back to his place and rest. And then maybe reflect on what I did.
I got dressed and then looked in the mirror, but what I saw made me cover my mouth with shock. The mate mark on my neck...it was now more obvious like a new one had been added on top of it. I used my fingers to caress it gently, my mind going back to how I’d begged Gamma Rhett to bite me.
I groaned silently to myself.
Isleen, what have you done?