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Chapter 66: _ All I Ever Wanted
The world seemed to dissolve after Kylo left. I was a ball of tears and heartbreak. I slumped to the floor beside my bed and allowed the sobs to consume me.
Kylo had just broken up with me.
It wasn’t just that, but my fear.
Fear of drifting somewhere else. To someone else. Someone I shouldn’t be with.
My door creaked open slightly, and Liam’s soft voice inquired, "Mum? Are you alright?"
Oh, Liam, I was far from being alright.
The mere sound of his concern only intensified my anguish. I couldn’t face him, couldn’t explain that Kylo had left my heart shattered into pieces.
Crying my eyes out until they were puffy and heavy, I drifted off to sleep.
And with sleep came dreams, or perhaps nightmares. Gamma Rhett’s name slipped from my lips occasionally, subconsciously.
"Rhett."
"Oh, Rhett."
I was having a dream. In this dream, he was touching me and I did let him. I allowed myself to feel all the pleasure. I allowed myself to touch him back– to love him.
Hours passed and I was still basking in the glory of this pleasant dream. This dream that would become for me a nightmare when I awakened.
And then, a subtle scent began to stir me from my slumber. A scent that was to me more than a scent.
It was his scent - rich, earthy, and spiced with the intoxicating essence of power.
Gamma Rhett!
On a whim, I was propelled from my bed as if by an unseen force. It was a desperate, instinctual urge to find the source of this scent. My mind was still muddled with sleep and it raced back to the memory of our promise - the promise of meeting in the darkness. We said we’d meet tonight.
I was going to reject him. I would reject him.
But then, his son had just dumped me. Would I ever grow the balls to dump the father? I wouldn’t know unless I tried.
And that’s what I was going to do. I’d try.
I stumbled over to my window and peeked out into the night. The scent was heavier there. I was right.
There he stood, bathed in the glow of the moon. The grace of his presence is undeniable. He seemed like a trophy in my eyes.
My Wolf was happy. Her mate was here to meet us in the dark.
Worry washed over me. Had I kept him waiting?
A whole Gamma Rhett was standing outside the window, waiting for me?
The ache within me was too great to bear. I used the fact that I didn’t want to keep him waiting out of respect to race out of my room.
I found Liam and Cullen sprawled on the living room floor, engrossed in a video game.
"Liam, you should be asleep!" I chided gently, the image of his worried brow from earlier still vivid in my mind. "You have school in the morning."
Liam’s gaze shifted from the screen to me, confusion clouding his expression. "You think there’ll be school after what happened today, Mum?"
The mishaps of the day slammed back into me. I totally forgot about all of that.
Because right now, a man was waiting for me outside. Patiently waiting.
"Still, Go to bed, Liam," I instructed. "I... I’ll be back soon. I want to find you in bed by the time I get back
Cullen turned towards me, a frown creasing his brow. "Where are you going, Isleen? Don’t you know we’re not supposed to be out in the pack this late?"
Tch.
If only you knew that I was in safe hands, Cullen. That no one else could ever protect me as much as the man waiting for me outside. Too sad I was going to reject him.
Liam jumped to my defense, to my surprise. "She’ll be safe. She’ll be back."
I nodded, unable to meet Cullen’s concerned gaze. "Lupe came around earlier, right? Liam said she left something for me?"
Cullen rolled his eyes. "Left something for you? Girl came all the way from their house to come to play with you and offer her condolences about what happened at your school but you didn’t even give her the chance to because you were busy doing.... Well, Yeah, she left something for you. It’s over there..." He pointed at the dining table and I glanced there.
It was empty.
"It’s her regards. Go pick it up."
Argh. CULLEN!
"Fuck you, Cullen." I rolled and slipped out of the house.
The scent of Gamma Rhett grew overpowering, the moment I stepped into the night’s chill breeze.
My heartbeat increased with each step I took, and when he was finally within sight, my heart pounded like a wild drum against my ribs.
I kept on walking towards him but with the way his eyes locked onto mine, I became motionless. Hell, I couldn’t move a muscle with how much he had his dark eyes were boring into me.
Why?
Why did I have to feel this way? I came here to end things with this man for good, for heaven’s sake!
And thus, I stood there, rooted to the spot and staring unwaveringly at him as he did me. One thing I was vividly aware of was the undeniable pull towards the man before me.
I was about to reject him. To send him away. I’d lose him before he became mine. 𝑛𝑜𝑣𝑝𝑢𝘣.𝘤𝑜𝘮
Remembering Kylo’s final words, a sob broke free from my throat. I couldn’t control it. I had no one.
No one else.
Kylo was going to leave me too.
Fueled by a desperate ache that I couldn’t quite place, I ran through the distance, stunning even myself but Gamma Rhett more.
I knew he was shocked by my sudden action with the way he released his hands from his pocket. I guess we were both clueless. I also didn’t know what I was doing.
What I did know was that I threw myself into Gamma Rhett’s hands. He wasn’t ready but he caught me, confusion and something akin to tenderness mingling in his gaze.
That able man!
I clung to him, letting the tears flow freely, my body trembling with the intensity of my emotions. All I wanted– and needed was just someone I could always turn to. A shoulder to cry on.
I didn’t know why all of this was happening to me but I knew I didn’t deserve them.
