NOVPUBPov Xagar:
It was nighttime and I was outside the Dungeon watching the stars and planets pass by as the Dimensional Dragon moved to its next destination.
I was lying on the grass and sometimes I put my hand on my forehead to take the blood jewel, the words I heard earlier were still stuck in my mind.
"Thinking about what Lord Zenos said?" (Fiona)
"Yes, how can I not think about something like that?" (I)
"I thought you would be more than happy to accept, you would have all the power you wanted, you would be completely against the Church of Light and in a position where sooner or later you will be facing the God Baldr himself." (Fiona)
"..." (I)
Everything she is telling me really went through my head, my hatred for the Church of Light was the only thing that kept it alive when I saw no point in continuing to exist, the kind of power they offered me is everything I could want, but these thoughts they didn’t last long.
"You must understand, power is all I want, but this power does not come free, there will be responsibilities accompanying this power... we will be among the Divine beings." (I)
"I know that very well, so much power scares me a little, I don’t know what to think." (Fiona)
Fiona lies down next to me, I can feel the imbalance in her Aura, an insignificant tremor in her Aura when she is sighing, this shows that she is panicking, I only noticed this from the time I spend next to her.
"This power doesn’t scare me, what I’m afraid of is myself... what will I be with this power?" (I)
"Like this?" (Fiona)
"Fiona, Divine Heralds are above Divine Beasts, they can be considered subordinate Gods... we would be Gods!!" (I)
"Even without counting the now where we can’t even comprehend this level of power, what will happen in 100 years, 1000 years or maybe in 10000 years?" (I)
"Will I be as arrogant, proud and authoritarian as Baldr or the Gods at his side!?" (I)
"Maybe I will one day be the same as them?" (I)
"You can’t be serious, you want to talk about things so far away in time, why think about it now?" (Fiona)
"If we accept this we will be immortal, we will live for so long that I can’t be sure how much I will change by then, maybe I wouldn’t even recognize myself." (I)
"People haven’t changed that much..." (Fiona)
"I CHANGED!!!" (I)
"I WAS ALREADY THE MOST FAITHFUL OF THE LIGHT TEMPLARS!!!" (I)
"I STAINED MY SWORD IN BLOOD COUNTLESS TIMES WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE SCREAMING ABOUT JUSTICE!!!!" (I)
"HOW MANY INNOCENTS DID I KILL!?? HOW MUCH DESTRUCTION DID I CAUSE!?? HOW MANY PEOPLE DID I INSPIRE TO FOLLOW THE SAME PATH THAT I WAS SO ASHAMED OF!?" (I)
SIGH
I stood up screaming, but not at Fiona but screaming at myself, what I was feeling was my blood boiling inside me from all this emotion, I was lost with a lot of things in my head and realizing that I was losing control, I sigh and lay flat on the grass once again looking up.
"I have changed before, what I am now is so different from what I was before that I could compare two completely different people, this great change happened in less than 100 years... for a mortal this is a long time, but for the Gods This time is very short." (I)
"If in such a short period of time I have changed so much, then how can I be sure of what I will be like in thousands of years? Suddenly I may end up being the same as everything I hate today..." (I)
"(My head screams to accept this power, it will be everything I wanted, but my heart screams all the time asking in my mind if I deserve such power.)" (I)
"So you have the fear of changing and it’s not so wrong, I really can’t promise you will never change, it happens to everyone, change is part of life." (Fiona)
"You’re talking like Mrs. Alice, but that’s not..." (I)
"Xagar, you were born and raised surrounded by just that, it was always clear to you who was on the good side and who was on the bad side, that’s how you learned since you were young." (Fiona)
"Now you have opened your eyes seeing the truth, your determination will not allow you to follow the same path as the Gods of Light." (Fiona)
"Maybe you’re right but that’s just one of my thoughts, I also often think about whether I deserve this power, whether I deserve this position." (I)
"Is this fair to Zenos who brought me so much?" (I)
"This is the power intended for those who follow the teachings of Zenos and whose Faith deserves to be rewarded..." (I)
"For the love of the Gods, shut up!" (Fiona)
Before I knew it she jumped up from her lying position and kicked me in the face making me fall back, I wasn’t expecting to be hit and I just stared at her as she started talking.
"Stop this bullshit drama!" (Fiona)
"Answer a few simple questions and just say yes or no, got it?" (Fiona)
"..." (I)
"Yes." (I)
"Do you have Faith in Zenos?" (Fiona)
"Yes, but I..." (I)
"I just said yes or no! Now the second question." (Fiona)
"Would you fight to protect the people of this Dungeon?" (Fiona)
"Yes." (I)
"Do you trust Zenos, Hades, Magnus and the people here?" (Fiona)
"Yes." (I)
"Do you trust me?" (Fiona)
"Yes." (I)
"Now the last question, do you trust yourself?" (Fiona)
"..." (I)
"Answer the question!" (Fiona)
"Not..." (I)
"So stop regretting useless things all the time, today and now are the only things we can control!" (Fiona)
"Even Zenos could be an Evil Dragon in thousands of years or a planet-destroying Demon, he clearly already has the power for that now and hasn’t even become a God yet, if we’re going to talk about bad possibilities for the future, then there are many!" (Fiona)
"So stop making excuses for your lack of confidence and your fear, if you’re going to think about something, then think about what you can do now!" (Fiona)
"Did you understand!?" (Fiona)
"Yes..." (I)
She pulled me by the shoulder, looking directly into my eyes, I could see her willpower and determination, she had already made a decision.
"Think about what I said and stop acting like a child, stop lamenting about what has already happened or worrying about things that might not even happen and start thinking about what you can do within your power today!" (Fiona)
"I will meet Zenos tomorrow to give my answer with or without you." (Fiona)
"..." (I)
She let go of me and walked back to the dungeon gate, so I sat down and looked once again at the stars passing by while thinking about what she said.
"What can I do...?" (I)
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Pov Zenos:
I was tired, I had a lot of things to solve, the problem with the Dungeon people seemed important, but they told me not to do anything and that this could be good for everyone, so I focused on filling the Divine Herald positions.
"Aren’t you going to rest?" (Alice)
"I am unable." (I)
"Thinking about those two’s response?" (Alice)
"No, whether they accept it or not won’t matter, I have other possibilities if they refuse." (I)
"Then why choose them?" (Alice)
"Because they are the best choices, their affinities, personality and willpower are excellent, but they lack a purpose to guide them." (I)
"Xagar wants revenge against the Church of Light, he feels betrayed, deceived and manipulated, he now questions every decision he has made in life and does not trust himself for having walked a path that he himself considers "disgusting" in his words." (I)
"We will face the Church of Light sooner or later, their vague purpose can be directed in a more constructive way on our side." (I)
"Fiona is even worse, she wants the power to protect, the position of Xagar that she wants to destroy, but Fiona doesn’t have a specific objective of what she wants to protect, she doesn’t have an ideal of her own, she doesn’t have a family and she doesn’t have a home to live in turn back." (I)
"I would like her to consider this home of hers, the people here as her family and give her a purpose before she gets lost along the way." (I)
"That’s not all, is it?" (Alice)
"..." (I)
"You know too much." (I)
"I watch you a lot, I saw you around Sophia." (Alice)
"I would like to turn her into a Herald, but..." (I)
Sigh
"She is not suitable for this, I can feel the trace of Essence within her, but at the same time I see sadness." (I)
"She’s been with you as long as I have, but she was left behind by everyone, she trained me and I know she regrets not being able to be her guard like she promised that day." (Alice)
"I wish she would stop looking at me and see the power that is already within her." (I)
Suddenly I felt a wave of Aura explode full of the power of death and curse.
"It looks like I won’t be resting today, let’s take a look now that she’s awake." (I)
