NOVPUBAll my senses closed, I was unable to feel anything other than a level of pain only comparable to what I went through in Hell.
I wanted to scream, but I didn’t have a voice and if I did I wasn’t able to hear, I wanted to cry in pain and I probably should have been doing that with a horrible face, but I wasn’t able to feel the tears.
For me all there was was pain, endless pain, body, mind and Soul plunged into a cacophony of limitless torment.
Strangely, it was in this endless swallowing torment that I could feel for the first time something inside me, something familiar and at the same time strange, I felt like I tried to touch it and that was when I found it.
It wasn’t a ’false me’ like before, it wasn’t a part of me either, as soon as I saw it I knew what it was, I knew who I was.
Willing
It was the manifestation of my will, it was there in my humanoid form, but I knew it was dormant, I could feel that my pain was generating reactions for everything I am, whether in body, power or Soul.
In the midst of the pain I felt the only part of me that did not bend the pain and with that charity took over me, the mind was just something physical and limited, I could not see the depth and complexity of anything, the Soul was the opposite just diving into the depth without being able to see the simplicity of what is on the surface and thus just feeling the depth without truly trying to understand.
When I touched on my ’Will’ it was as if everything finally made sense, I had been working on duality all this time, always seeing things from one point of view or the other point of view, I was never able to bring the two together, always with one incomplete overview and working with assumptions most of the time.
I finally understood something simple, it was in my face this whole time.
What is Au I’ve always wondered that.
How can Authority be different from Aura?
It didn’t make sense to me, it was one of the truths I just accepted.
How is something like this used to become a God by mixing with an Essence?
The Essence is the fundamental power over a specific aspect of the universe, it should not be possible to take possession of something like this without already being a God.
These were questions that I had and chose to ignore, since I was reborn I learned to give my attention to only certain areas, so many things that for me, who came from another world, seemed impossible, I had to just accept to not go crazy, which didn’t help a lot since I know better than anyone that I don’t have much sanity.
All these previously ignored questions came back to me the same second I touched my ’Will’ and with that my point of view began to change as I understood everything, before I knew it I was seeing everything through the open eyes of my ’Will’ with everything falling into place perfectly.
It has always been a trinity, Nature is made up of a trinity of 3 energies, this is what maintains the flow of power throughout the universe, even a body has its trinity being body, mind and Soul.
I even learned during the process of forging the Sources of Power about the Trinity of Existence which can be described as Creation, Transformation and Destruction.
The same can be described for all life forms that exist being described as Life, Adaptation, Death.
The world cannot be seen just from a simple perspective, from one point of view, nor are there just two sides of a coin since there is something that separates these sides.
Even the moral compass does not only have Good and Evil, there is also the Gray line that divides the two and where most people live.
"Authority is the representation of Will, a Will that affects the Universe itself and if strong enough can merge with the Essence, becoming a part of it, thus becoming a God, integrating with the Universe itself in harmony." (I)
Authority (Will) + Essence (Universe Aspect) + Sacred Power (Faith directed at you by another) = Divinity
"I understand." (I)
Suddenly it was as if everything made sense, I didn’t even feel the pain anymore, it was as if a new meaning had emerged within me.
I looked where I was and it was the same starry field with a crystal path where I devoured my ’false self’.
"Yes, you understood the basics alone, congratulations." (Tarzor)
"Here is your reward..." (Tarzor)
"Tarzor..." (I)
Suddenly the great Serpent appeared once again or should I say it was always there waiting, when I opened my eyes here again Tarzor dissolved into pure white energy that invaded my ’Will’.
Soon my ’Will’ began to change, 3 glows appeared within me spreading and mixing, but I felt nothing, my mind and Soul were numb, I could feel my body and Soul changing once again in an extreme way leaving only my ’Will’ containing my consciousness.
Soon, from within me something emerged, the 4-pointed star appeared in my chest and I felt my body change once again into Dragon form, this was my true form, a power very similar to my Chaos Power was burning inside From me, the 4-pointed star suddenly began to change with 2 new points emerging before a seventh point slowly emerged and made its way through.
When this happened I felt something connecting with me, in fact I felt several things connecting, it didn’t take long to understand that these were the connections that were previously blocked. 𝖓𝖔𝖛𝔭𝖚𝖇.𝔠𝖔𝔪
I could feel each of my Familiars, there was a glow in their connections and only one of them remained unlit, it was exactly in that one that I felt the power extending as if it were alive until it reached where Hinata was.
The starry sky around me shattered once more and I emerged once again in that same environment on the surface of Tarzor.
This time the Mother of the Grave was not wearing a mocking smile as usual, she was kneeling with her head lowered in a place hundreds of meters away, next to her was a coiled white Serpent looking at me.
When I looked down I saw the blood and flesh spread everywhere, this was my blood and flesh, my body was still hurting, but it was far from over.
"(Do you understand?)" (Tarzor)
"Yes." (I)
"But why would I agree?" (I)
When the White Serpent became energy being delivered to me it was a type of Essence being delivered, it was thanks to this Essence that one was able to consume the other 3 that I had just absorbed, leaving only one complete Essence that I let flow naturally through my connection with Hinata.
That energy not only helped me with the Essences, but gave me an idea of what Tarzor wanted, because he showed me what he really is.
"After all that, why should I do anything for you?" (I)
"Because you need me too and you’ll find out soon enough." (Tarzor)
Saying this he disappeared and I wanted to talk to him more, I had many questions to be answered and just when I wanted to call him, I could feel it.
The pain I felt before returned even stronger to the point where my body fell to the ground writhing, my muscles, bones and blood were moving on their own within my body while restructuring, my Soul was coming into conflict with my Will, I could feel the illusory Essence Core vibrating on its own and the same was happening with the abnormal 7-pointed star.
Everything that made me up was in pain, but I still held myself together using my power to forcefully control my body and so I got back on my feet.
"Follow me, I’ll walk you back to your group." (Mother of the Grave)
"..." (I)
I wanted to attack her now, but my condition was bad enough for one day, I would wait for revenge next time now that I know where to find her.
Ding!
<[ You are going through the Divine Ascension process ]>
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<[ Enter a Hallowed Land in your name to begin the process ]>
But it was at that moment that a system message appeared directly in front of me without giving me the option to ignore it or leave it until later, a message that exploded in my mind triggering a new wave of pain.
I could feel my Essences moving in the illusory Essence Core, I could feel my blood evaporating while still inside my veins and I could feel as if everything in me was changing at the same time, I felt as if I would completely black out at any moment in a deep sleep.
It was in this miserable state that I was dragged through a portal that ended up on the back of the Dimensional Dragon.
When I got there I was already far beyond my limit and my eyes could no longer see anything other than the energies of Essences from the entire universe.
I only slightly felt some people surrounding me and from the Auras I knew who they could be.
