NOVPUBChapter 708: 708, letting go is also a form of love
Chapter 708: 708, letting go is also a form of love
He paused before continuing, “I felt a sense of loss then, but at the same time, a sense of liberation. You, whom I had been yearning for, were finally getting married and having a child. I had to bless you and then move on to seek my own happiness. But when I heard that you had divorced, I found myself ecstatic, unable to control my joy. That’s when I realized that all these years, it wasn’t that I didn’t miss you. I was just too afraid of not being able to have you, so I suppressed my feelings. When you told me you were getting married, I naturally accepted the inevitable. But the truth is, I have always loved you. Only when you said you divorced, my years of lingering affection and love erupt.”
This astonishing confession left Song Qinghuan utterly at a loss.
Si Jianan continued, “I don’t know what happened between you and that man, but you’re divorced now. That means you won’t be getting back together and you need to find someone else to be the father of your child. I want to love you now, will you give me a chance?” 𝖓𝔬𝖛𝔭𝔲𝖇.𝔠𝔬𝖒
Song Qinghuan just stared at him, slowly recovering from her shock.
She was astonished that Si Jianan could harbor such deep feelings for her, but she believed that his emotions were genuine.
However, she couldn’t, and wouldn’t accept this precious love, because she already had someone she loved, and fortunately, that person also loved her.
Having Shi Yuhuan, her world is already perfect and complete.
Thus, she needed no surplus of affection, nor could she accept it, as it would only bring turmoil.
She lowered her eyes, sighing deeply.
Then, she looked up at Si Jianan and said seriously, “Si Xiangbei, thank you for always thinking and caring about me. But I already have someone who loves me, I don’t need anything else.”
Si Jianan was taken aback and slowly removed his hand from Song Qinghuan’s shoulder.
Song Qinghuan moved back a bit, creating distance between them, and continued, “I am not a person who is fond of reminiscences, I always live in the present, thinking only about today and tomorrow. Hence, my memories of youth have become blurred. I don’t want to lie to you, I can’t even remember what Si Xiangbei looked like back then, but no matter whether I remember him or not, Si Xiangbei will always be my friend, a lifetime friend.” Song Qinghuan’s said, decisively.
Si Jianan looked at her, a bitter taste in his mouth, “Even if you can’t be with him in the future, you…”
Song Qinghuan interrupted him, “I want to spend my life with him. If I can be with him, then I will, if not, then I’ll live my life alone with my child.”
Si Jianan looked at Song Qinghuan, and suddenly broke into laughter. However, it was an extremely forced laugh.
He scoffed at himself, “Three rejections in a matter of days.”
“I’m sorry, Si Xiangbei!” Song Qinghuan bit her lip.
Si Jianan forced a smile, “Qinghuan, don’t say sorry to me, you’ve done nothing wrong. It’s my fault for not seeking you out sooner and thus missing you. So I don’t deserve your apologies. Even if in the future I can’t forget you, I just wish for your happiness and not to ruin it. But I hope when you think of me occasionally, you can remember Si Xiangbei, whom you once said you’d never forget.”
“Yes!” Song Qinghuan almost cried.
But she also heaved a sigh of relief. She was worried that Si Jianan would do something impulsive after being rejected, but it seems like he wouldn’t.
Si Jianan, indeed a mature and stable man.
